Imagine a wall
And on the other side of the wall is a person you care about more than anything else in the world. All you want is to be with them in every way.
But you can’t reach them. No matter how much you try to find a way around you can’t. No matter if you scratch until your fingernails bleed or beat until your fists are bruised and broken-nothing will get you to the other side.
The only solution is words. But even then they may fail. Because you don’t know if the words you say will break down the wall or build it stronger.
And you want to say, no scream, the words but can’t because you don’t know will happen. You could gain and lose it all so easily that you remain paralyzed. Unable to say a single word.